Marriage

This October will celebrate 7 years of marriage with Dustin.  Two kids later and it feels like a lifetime ago we were falling in love and staying in love.  A husband is supposed to be a best friend, a confidant, a person whom you share joint goals, and someone who you love and respect.  I cannot say that about him.  If anything, we have turned into roommates who happen to have two adorable boys together.  I have sought him to be the leader of our home and quite honestly he is not living up to my expectations.  We have tried conseling.  We have tried prayer.  It seems like he does not want to make it work.  I want to build a life with someone and share experiences with them.  I do not know what to do.  Should I stay and show the boys this is the life that I expect them to have with their future wives?  Or should I pray more, hoping that he somehow changes his feelings and becomes a good husband and dad?  He will one day realize what he has missed with the boys. 

Our Growing Garden: Urban Walls Review and Giveaway#links

Our Growing Garden: Urban Walls Review and Giveaway#links

I love the chalk wall ones and so would my 19 month old son!

Peyton Walking

So i have been waiting for my sweet p to walk for months.  I know i am not the typical mom who thinks that walking means that their baby is now a toddler.  i love watching peyton squat, get his little booty up in the air, and then take off with a few steps.  He stumbles a little, but for the most part he keeps on going.  it is so fun to watch him walk like a drunk person.  i tried to get him to walk again this morning but of course he just sat there and ate his cheerios.  he will do it again when he is ready. 

10 Months- 10 Things i love about sweet p

1.  The way you utter the word "do(g)", "da(da)"
2.  The way you are trying to be mr. independent- you would rather scream then lay down long enough for me to change your diaper or your clothes
3.  The way you look so much like your daddy.  you have so many of his features which makes me love you even more.
4.  The way your belly rounds out
5.  your short legs- you might be in size 12 months forever.
6.  the sleepy eyes and the extra cuddle time you need in the morning after first waking up.
7.  You are fearless!  no dog bowl, dog kennel, or baby gate is going to keep you from getting to them. 
8.  your cute little smirk and the fact that you are always smiling.
9.  The way you cling to me and you crave my closeness that you cry when i put you down. 
10.  The thought that you are my everything- you consume my every thought. 

What I want to remember about Sweet P at 9 months

--The way you say "do." What does this word mean to you?  How I would love to get in your head and see what you are trying to say.
--They way you stand and then look for me.
--You are always so happy playing by yourself at daycare.
--The way you hold food and try to feed yourself. 
--The way you are oblivious to food on your face.
--You try to hug me and bring my face to yours for a kiss.  It melts my heart everytime. 
--You wiggle everytime i lay you down to change your diaper. 
--The little coos and noises you make.
--The way your smile is so big it fills your entire face.
--The way you giggle when the dog comes near you. 
--How you do not like to put your feet in the grass or anywhere near the grass for that matter.
--You are starting to wear size 3 diapers and growing out of your size 6-9 month clothes. 

I love you so much!  Each day is a blessing that i get to spend with you my sweet P. And yes, this is really late since your 9 month birthday was on the 2nd. 

Urgh...done with the pump!

I am so sick of the little noise the pumping makes every day.  my whole day is segmented into three hour time blocks that i am either nursing p or pumping...come on november.  i think it is best for hime to go all the way until 12 months.  i have started him on solids which he loves. he really likes the yogurt and bananas.  my little fruit eater.  he is going to eat me out of house and home one day.  i want to eat healthier for him and for us. i like to make our own baby food instead of the store bought kind.  any suggestions to make our own?

Ears, nose, and throat

I have been really laxed on blogging.  it has been over two months ago that i wrote anything.  i have been too busy reading other people's blogs and forgetting to update mine.  Once again i took sweet p to the doctor to recheck his ears.  the doctor said that he has taken all of the antibotics he can and made an appointment for him to see a specialist later this week.  all the doctors appointments are taking a lot of time away from work and spending it with him having fun instead of in the doctor's office waiting and wishing we were anywnere but there.  hopefully his ears will get better.  i will be so glad to be done with the sleepless nights.  the ear drops, the crying, the screaming.  the only good part is all of the extra cuddle time i get trying to soothe him.  the only way he will fall asleep is on my chest.  it is the nicest feeling ever to have him lying there.